This photo was 3 weeks ago. That week I woke up and knew what my photo would look like. I wanted a photo that really showed how I felt at that moment. I get into these funks sometimes and I’m sure a lot of mom’s out there know what I’m talking about. Loneliness starts to creep in, even though I have 3 beautiful children, a husband who is crazy about me, wonderful friends, a God who is with me every day, etc, etc. Being a stay at home mom can be very isolating, even though I do quite a bit out of the house. Anyway, that week passed and I am thankful for it. I know weeks like that will come again, I get better at handling them each time they arrive. I don’t need anyone to do anything for me, or to rescue me, its just me…and I have learned to be ok with it. Ok with setting me aside, tending to my babies, making sure they are fed, clothed, happy, learning, feel loved, while I….I….I don’t know about me. Standing there making lunch for my children, longing for His presence, feeling tiny eyes watching me in total wonder, I hold fast to the One who gives me strength…
“You keep him (her!) in perfect peace
whose mind is stayed on you,
because he (She!) trusts in you.”
—Isaiah 26:3
this is my life… every single day. and i love it.
What a lovely bible verse. I shall have to remember that one!
A verse I’ve been praying for a number of weeks now. The very same one. I love how you said longing for His presence. And that you don’t need anyone to rescue you. I’m learning to feel that way, too. Hard, but good. Praying for you. :)
Amy…i love this post. How true…and honest. I think a lot of us moms feel that way…just not all of us are willing to admit it…or even know how to talk about it for that matter. You really worded it so perfectly…especially the part where you said: “I don’t need anyone to do anything for me, or to rescue me, its just me…and I have learned to be ok with it.” Thank you for sharing this post…and the picture…what a beautiful image.
Lovely shots. I so know what you mean about the isolating feeling etc. It’s both a wonderful and hard job being a SAHM. It’s important that you not forget about who “you” are in the midst of all the motherly duties you perform each day…
It’s nice to know I’m not alone in feeling the very same way from time to time…..
xo