Yesterday marked a new era for us. I sent my baby to school. Last year we home schooled, which I absolutely loved and so did Abby. I know I will be homeschooling all my life, but for now, in Abby’s case, a wonderfully sweet little private school is where she belongs. She had an “awesome” day (in her words!) I didn’t cry when I dropped her off, probably because I was busy taking photos. I had my mind on other things, rather than my sweet little Abby being in someone else’s care for a whole day.

When I picked her up she said she missed me, she said she thought about me during the day and wondered what I was doing. She made me give her a run down of my daily activities. Suddenly she is out of the loop and wants to know how many loads of laundry I folded, or what I ate for lunch.

I’m sure many many moms went through the same thoughts that I did yesterday…the thought, the longing, of keeping my baby a baby forever. I know she has to grow up, she tells me she does! But I want to protect her little mind for as long as possible. Protect her from getting hurt, from being made fun of, from hearing bad words or things her little 6 year old mind shouldn’t hear yet. I trust her teachers completely, but that still doesn’t take away the worry that I hold at times. She looked way too big of a girl yesterday in her little school uniform…I put butterfly clips in her hair to bring a little bit of “baby” back into her look.

I’m very excited to see how this changes Zach and I’s relationship. In the middle of the day yesterday he stopped me and said, “its just you and me mom!” (even though Liliana was right next to us!) I saw his mind working, that he finally was able to have some alone time with his Mama. I like that.